selective suffering | A Poem
- May 5
- 2 min read
selective suffering
to be haunted or to be hollow
which poison to choose?
the pain of presence or the pain of
absence
which suffering do I
desire most?
i can’t tell if this warmth is sustaining me or
burning me
to have you or
lose you
i know naught of which
it will have to be
this dying on my tongue, a
language i’m no longer fluent in but
still know how to read
how terrible it is…
to become spring means accepting
the risk of winter
how can we learn to
forgive ourselves?
for the things we did not
become, but had to
become, and perhaps will never
become
i guess
no matter the road taken,
it will be glorious
it will be unbearable
for every road is lonely,
yet every road is holy
the only error is not walking forth
Concluding Thoughts
I have several poems that have been sitting in my notes app for months now, even though I've been wanting to share them. So, for those of you subscribed to the blog, you've probably been getting inundated with emails over the last day or two with updates that I've posted… Sorry for the spam, lol. The reason I haven't posted any of these poems is because I was concerned that the person who I wrote these poems about would read them, but honestly, I just don't care anymore. I'm allowed to share and post my art to my personal blog. And if you-know-who is reading this… Hi, I guess?
This poem in particular was buried deep within another poem that was written more like an emotional brain dump. I think I deleted about 90% of the poem, reduced it down to this, and while it sucked to kill some of my darlings, I think the piece is all the stronger for it.
Happy writing~
—Bair✍︎
Where epic fantasy meets philosophical ponderings of the self.
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